I have been sitting here and staring at the blank page on my word processor software for the past hour trying to figure out how I start this blog post. I know exactly what I have to say but for some reason I just couldn’t think of the words.

When I sold my collection of blogs, back in October, I really did intend to walk away. Blogging had lost it’s appeal to me and I’d had enough of everything and wanted to leave it all. That decision lasted around six weeks until I set up a new blog called The Angry Blogger.

You know what is weird? I actually missed it. I missed writing the blog posts, I missed the abusive comments that I’d receive from a few people. My new blog just wasn’t the same to me. So I’ve agreed to return since Steven was having difficulty finding time to update this blog.

I have gone back on the pills. I’m making more of an effort to get out of the house and go places. Several people have mentioned that I seem a lot happier, a lot more mellow and more confident lately. That could have something to do with the fact that I have managed to find someone very special who has put a huge smile on my face. 

Yep, 2010 has been an awesome year for me so far. 

I went out with Will on Monday evening for some drinks and to see the Collings and Herring podcast recording. I like meeting Will because he always says something that cheers me up, this time it was this camp 1920s cartoonesque voice that he gave to his dog when impersonating him.

I enjoyed the show but I was slightly distracted because the ‘someone very special who has put a huge smile on my face’ was very ill and to top it off my brother stuck his nose in, started stirring things up and I ended up having a big row with her which pretty much ruined my night and made her feel even worse than she was already feeling.

I won’t go into details but basically he is being really pervy to not just her but it seems every woman that he gets into contact with. I’ve seen the messages he has sent her via text and on Facebook and she had to talk me out of breaking his face on a couple of occasions.

We spoke on the way home and cleared things up a bit but I have a feeling we have gone backwards because of his interference. Why do people do that? Why do people who can’t even sort out their own lives feel it is OK to meddle in other people’s?

I know people who could not hold onto a relationship if you glued it into their hands yet they are experts in how to have a long and successful relationship and insist on sticking their noses in.

Since Monday I’ve been a little bit lost with myself. She has been so ill that all she is doing is sleeping (which is a good thing) and obviously this means I’m not getting to talk to her, which makes me sad as I miss her but because she isn’t in contact with me I’m worried she might be REALLY ill.

My mind works like that at times. If I arrange to meet someone and they are late, and don’t tell me, then I start imagining they have been involved in a horrific traffic accident or are lying dead in their house.

I have been trying to take my mind off things and did what any bloke should do and went and brought myself some electronics. Sadly it didn’t last long. Hopefully I’ll get to speak to her over the weekend if she is feeling better.

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