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Lay beside me, tell me what THEY’ve done
Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now but it’s open if you’re true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you
Lay beside me, under wicked sky
black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of [...]
Archive for October, 2009
Metallica – The Unforgiven II
October 30th, 2009 
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My Readers Are Very Helpful
October 30th, 2009 Steven Richardson Whoever said that the people who read my blog are not looking out for my best interests obviously doesn’t know them as well as I do. I’ve received some rather lovely comments lately informing me that Soma would be the best way to overdose.
Not sure if that is true, or how easy it would be [...]
Sold My Tickets
October 29th, 2009 Steven Richardson I was scheduled to go to some music gigs in the coming month. Cannibal Corpse, Amon Amarth, Clutch and Five Finger Death Punch, to name a few. I’ve now sold the tickets to various people as I am now not going to go.
I sold the Amon Amarth ticket as I didn’t really want to bump [...]
Dark Lotus – I Wanna Die
October 28th, 2009 Steven Richardson [Monoxide Child:]
Now that I’m dead and gone
Look at me
I’m floating like the breeze
With my roots strong like trees
I’m filtered in your memories
Holding a candle light vigil
Saying a prayer
My name is graced
Buried with the paint on my face
I put the chase up long enough
I live the lifestyle wrong and tough
And now my life span’s up
I give [...]
Not Coping Very Well
October 28th, 2009 Steven Richardson Well it has certainly been a long time since I’ve felt this low and shitty. Even lower than when I tried to kill myself twice in a week about a month ago. I’m not sure but I think it might be something to do with me missing someone. Just because I’ve decided to keep a [...]
Avril Lavigne – Tomorrow
October 26th, 2009 Steven Richardson And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it’ll be ok,
yeah I try to believe you,
But I don’t
When you say that it’s gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today
(Today)
[Chorus:]
I don’t know how I’ll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don’t know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
it’s a different [...]
It’s For The Best
October 26th, 2009 Steven Richardson I use this blog to get certain things off my chest, which is why it has a lot of anger and bitching contained on it’s pages. If I didn’t then I’d be a hell of a lot more angrier and I’d be punching people left, right and centre on a daily basis.
My Mind’s Prey
October 25th, 2009 Steven Richardson My hands are cupped around my cheeks
And I find feel the coldness of my skin.
It’s is like I have never been under the sun
The ice that my flesh is.
Why am I so cold?
Why I am I so alone?
Why do I shiver when it’s a hot summer’s day?
I curl myself up in a tight ball
To try [...]
October 25th, 2009 Steven Richardson Everything I do is done to please other people. I have stopped smoking to please people, I have stopped drinking to please people, I have altered various aspects of myself to please people, I have taken anti-depressant pills to please people, I made an appointment with a counsellor to please people, I stand up to [...]
