I have certainly seen a difference in my general mood since I stopped introducing steroids into my body. I’m not talking about the kind of steroids that will give me an impressive physique, nor am I talking about the kind of steroids that athletes use to enhance their performance. I’m talking about a special type of steroid to help combat psoriasis.

The doctor had warned me at the time that it might alter my mood, it is apparently the strongest steroid they are legally allowed to produce in the world. Since I’ve stopped using it I have found that my mood has lightened up slightly, coincidence?

Actually today I really struggled to stay in my good mood.

I was woken up at 7am by the screaming kids in the flat upstairs getting ready for school (who gets ready at 7am when you live across the road from the fucking school!?). I had a row with the guys who came to fix the broken window in my bedroom as one of them started slagging off the decorating we had done to his apprentice. The dog chewed up another pair of my glasses.

On the bus I had the displeasure of seeing the arse of a really fat woman. I was just getting over that last piece of unpleasantness when my Ipod shuffled a song by Five Finger Death Punch which stamped on my fingers as they desperately clung onto my good mood.

Earlier today I had downloaded their entire album and it has some fucking depressing songs on it. Normally I would encourage that, I would actively seek out songs that are depressing. When this song came on my Ipod I had to turn it to another song as I was in the kind of mood to do something rather stupid.

I was still on quite a downer when I got into work and the other cleaners could tell as they kept the fuck away from me for the entire shift. Well apart from the supervisor who had to come and tell me what needed to be done today, and even she kept it very short and then scurried away like a terrified squirrel.

After work I popped into a nearby pub called The College Arms for a couple of pints and managed to force myself to cheer up a bit by thinking about Sunday. I’m really looking forward to watching Millwall gain promotion to the Championship in front of almost 50,000 Millwall fans.

It has been really hard not just give up and resort back to being the normal miserable grumpy fucker that I’ve been for so many years. I guess it was never going to be all plain sailing though. As the saying goes ‘nothing that is worth doing is easy.’

I found out this evening that Reiss received a reply from a company in Brick Lane who might be interested in sponsoring Bethnal Green Celtic next season. Actually I found this out by accident because I asked Wayne to let me know when they receive a reply and he told me they had received one and are having a meeting with the owner on the 28th.

I thought Wayne would have told me as soon as he heard but he said that he thought Reiss would have told me, a bit difficult as Reiss is not talking to me at the moment and has blocked me on MSN. I’m not sure what the problem is but knowing me it is probably all my fault.

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